Home Sweet Home

So here I am, home sweet home again. Have been doing a couple of shows and attending events. Andrewsmodel night out was awesome! Met my fellow model colleagues and we had a night to remember. After party at Bedroom was good. We hit there again the following Thurs but decided that the music wasn't to our liking so Rootz it is. Decided from now on it'll be there for Thurs. I am so missing KL already! 

But it's time to hit the books again so yes here I am wondering how on earth can I get to 9 companies in a month to finish the various assignments that has already been set in motion. Craziness to the max! 

I am about to lose my mind too! I so need a doctor to bring me back to life. 

But as they say, we live life only once, so cherish all its ups and downs and I hold that true. 

C'est La Vie. 

Craziness Abroad!

With exams out of the way, like finally, there's a whole load of other things to do before the next semester begins. With auditions, callbacks, acnes, running around to get my full academic calender and making sure they stick to it, food, yam cha sessions, shopping, packing and unpacking for my new place, making sure that I stick to picture-figure-thin, and a whole other things, it's a miracle that I still have a huge pile of untouched energy left in me. Phew. Enough said. 

And with the long awaited results, I can't say that it's anything but what I've aimed for. Am crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. I so want to spill more details now, but due to me not being able to do so at the moment, I shall keep that for another day. 

With all the latest event that has been slowly unfolding in my life, all I can say is that I am truly blessed to have my family, friends and love ones here supporting me. Without their support, I wouldn't have reach where I am today. 

~SV~

The light after darkness

Grieve may be the only thing we all have in common.

But it looks different on everyone.

It isn't just death we have to grieve,

It's life, 

It's loss, 

It's change.

And we wonder why it has to suck so much,

Sometimes it has to hurt so bad.

But the thing we got to try to remember,

Is that it can turn on anyone.

That's how you stay alive.

When it hurts so much you can't breath,

That's how you survive.

By remembering that one day, 

Somehow you won't feel this way, 

It won't hurt this much,

Grieve comes in its own time for everyone,

In its own way.

So the best we can do,

The best anyone can do,

Is to strive for honesty.

The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grieve,

Is that you can't control it.

The best we can do,

Is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes,

And let it go when we can.

The very worst part is the very minute you think you've past it,

It starts all over again.

And always, every time,

It takes your breath away. 

There are five stages of grieve,

And they look different on all of us.

But there are always five.

Denial.

Anger.

Bargaining.

Depression.

Acceptance. 

In the streets.

We entered the world alone,

And we leave it alone.

And everything that happens in between,

We owe it to ourselves to find a little company.

We need help, we need support,

Otherwise we're in it by ourselves as strangers, 
Cut off from each other, 

And we forget just how connected we all are.

So instead,

We choose love, we choose life.

And for a moment,

We feel just a little bit less alone.

The Letter Black - Best Of Me

Was introduced to this song by a good friend and it's been in my mind ever since.

 It truly brings out whatever feelings I had in me,

 the feelings, pain, trust and hope that is hidden deep in me.

But you never listen, no you just can't seem to let yourself trust your own self.

With your reasons, you refused any hope that you once had.

Why so? 

But even with all this, you're still there waiting patiently.

Waiting for the moment that never seem to appear. 

The sadness that I see in you, pains me terribly.

You said you want to but am afraid.

You are all I ever need.

The reason that keeps me whole is because of that. 

THE LETTER BLACK: BEST OF ME

LYRICS:

If I could find yesterday
I would take You back to where I'm coming from
Cause You can see the way
All these scars have kept me running
And chasing down the past
But I'm not done, I'm turning back

I swear, You're the only reason I keep breathing
I swear, You keep on giving me the reason to keep believing
Finally I'm worth it, though I'm not perfect
It still feels right, and I keep on giving
Trying to make a difference, in my life
But I know another way to show
Everything I can be for You
You're all that I'll ever need
I'll give you the Best of Me

If I could read tomorrow's mind
I would know exactly where You're taking me
If I'm going to slip away
Or if I stay and give You all my trust
You will keep me safe
I know You won't let me fade

I swear, You're the only reason I keep breathing
I swear, You keep on giving me the reason to keep believing
Finally I'm worth it, though I'm not perfect
It still feels right, and I keep on giving
Trying to make a difference, in my life
But I know another way to show
Everything I can be for You
You're all that I'll ever need
I'll give you the Best of Me

Oh, I know I believe it
No, I will be turning around
I want to know You now
Your Love won't let me down, no!

I swear, You're the only reason I keep breathing
I swear, You keep on giving me the reason to keep believing

Finally I'm worth it, though I'm not perfect
It still feels right, and I keep on giving
Trying to make a difference, in my life
But I know another way to show
Everything I can be for You
You're all that I'll ever need, Woah oh!

Finally I'm worth it, though I'm not perfect
It still feels right, and I keep on giving
Trying to make a difference, in my life
But I know another way to show
Everything I can be for You
You're all that I'll ever need
I'll give you the Best of Me

I'll give You the Best of Me!

I swear, You're the only reason I keep breathing
I swear...

*hugs*