Reminiscence...

Have you ever came across a moment where it just suddenly brings you to the past? The past that haunts you from time to time? Have you ever had a moment where although you have found happiness, little things can trigger those memories that you thought you have put behind you forever? 

Well I have been having reminiscence on and off. It all begin when I started to watch various series to kill any free time I had. And the funny thing is, it is not the storyline that makes me think back, the songs are the one that have the upper hand in making my mind wander endlessly. This song reminded me partly of how I was. 

I thought I've put on a rather firm mask on the outside but it seems like it wasn't enough.Repeatedly I tried and I did keep to my word but did you? I am not alone and I thought I had you right where I wanted you to be but it all seems to be in vain. It drove me terribly scary and it tore me apart. When I look into your eyes, I finally saw it. It pains me to the point where you have no idea. It just doesn't matter anymore when the the truth is set in motion. All that went on in my mind like a broken record player was since when did it start? How could it ended up like that? I thought we had it all in good condition. Did I reach for the sky I wonder, but why did I try so hard to bring it all together when in the end I know it's pointless seeing all the effort being washed down as quickly as how it came. I thought I could fight for it but I'm stuck on the ground. Indirectly you did asked me back but in a very open sort of way. How can I hold you to your words if you bailed? Is it too much to ask from you? I will tell you one last time and then I will really have to let you go. I could hardly look at you due to the fact that for every time I do, I somehow think that we could do it anyway. To think that I would never see those eyes again, it's so hard to prevent the tears from falling. It's not like we have any other choice but know that you are not alone. And yes as I've pointed it out, it was just what I thought we had. 

Words won't matter in the end

The moment I heard this, it made me smile. It reminded me that everyday is the start of something better, something beautiful, something that is worth living for. Love is truly sweet even if it is in the bitter sweet way. We keep falling after every failed attempt in life. We torture ourselves by pondering for hours, days or even a lifetime for the things that we cannot have after it's lost. But after all the sadness, dreams of happiness will once again bloom. It is our duty to cherish that moment. The moment that makes you alive again.When that happens no matter how hard you try to change it, no matter how hard you try to deny, in the end all we are we are. 

All we are by Matt Nathanson

I tasted, tasted love so sweet
And all of it was lost on me
Buttons sold like property
Sugar on my tongue
I kept falling over
I kept looking backward
I went broke believing
That the simple should be hard

All we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful

I wasted, wasted love for you
Traded out for something new
Well, it's hard to change the way you lose
If you think you never won

'Couse all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful

And in the end the words won't matter
'Couse in the end nothing stays the same
And in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain

'Couse all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, something real

All we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, beautiful 

And here's the video 

~S~

Angry Birds

With all the hype about the ever crazy, fun and super duper addictive game it is no surprise that is it one of the most phenomenal mobile games to date. Besides cracking your brains to find ways to eliminate the enemies, the pigs, they even came up with a cake!  

And also iPhone cases

This is good. =)

~S~

A New Year

While I'm still in the celebration mood, a very Happy New Year to everyone out there! 

Knowing that I have not been updating as frequent as I should, I made myself to make it as one of the new year resolutions among the many that I somehow manage to list down, to blog more frequently. Another way to keep myself from future procrastination. *I hope?* 

First of all an update on what has been going on:-

- MIFA is over and the winner is Yuen! *congrats babe* =)

- Shopping for the festive seasons and presents! 

- A brand new start. Let's see what happens from here on. 

- Busy x'mas house cleaning with bro n mum. Hell I totally forgot what a tiring affair it was. *phew*

- Christmas this year was in KL with the whole family and relatives from dad's side of the family.

- New year's eve was in JB again with almost  the whole gang from dad's side again.

- Back in Melaka again before heading back up to KL. 

- Endless list of series to indulge myself in. 

And am in dire need to get rid of all the yummylicious food that I have been munching non stop due to the festive season. And Chinese New Year is coming in 3 weeks time. Food again! How oh how am I suppose to juggle being an foodie lover and at the same time the need to watch my food intact? Contradicting no? 

  One can google up the entire list of diet plan to choose from but I think maintaining the plan is no easy thing. So to make things much more simpler, I shall just continue to eat as always. Oh food here I come!

Well that's all for now.

~S~

...photoshooting...

GOSH! A MONTH to UPDATE?

*bad steph* 

*bad steph*

Well actually I do want to update on numerous occasions but laziness strikes. 

Erm, maybe more to the 'I rather chill out' then 'Lets pour our thoughts into blogging!'. 

Haha! =)

Well you can't blame me since I have been up in the heart of KL since the end of last month 

and with that equals to 

food,

shopping, 

chilling out, 

more yummylicious food and fun! *grins from ear to ear*

So to sum up what's been happening, I was surprised to be chosen as one of the finalist for MIFA's- Who's Next Model Search! Woo hoo! And that the second good news I've got as the biggest is when I was offered a contract with Andrewsmodel! *prays for it to not stop*

Along with me are 9 other girls, all who are experienced in this industry so technically I'm like the extreme newbie. *gasp* But still, I am over the top when I heard the news. 

The girls are fun and yes very tall too, now I wish I were taller abit more then my current height. I wonder if climbing bars help anymore these days. Anyway the photoshoots are fun! 

We had Roxy, Tiffany & Co, Snips for our hair makeover, Dentistry, the one and only Datuk Farah Khan *her clothes are awecome!* and many more to come. Aren't it exciting! =)

Here's a sneakpeak of one of the shoots. Technically it's not the official picture but it's the picture that I took before going home that day. Can you spot me?

this is a photoshoot session for Datuk Farah Khan =)