It was sweet at first yet as the day proceeds, bits of bitterness creeps in into my mind. I find it a little shocking to learn that he would give in to the little game played on fb. Well, we can't always expect everything to be real and according to him, it's just nothing. Yet still, as the awareness creep slowly into my subconscious mind, I realise it's not anger that bothers me. To my horror, I'm actually being silly with jealousy over such matter. I'm just sick with jealously. Gosh it makes me realise that you are so much more important to me than anything else that I don't even want to share that request with anyone else. I can't even bare the thought of it.
By the sound of your voice when you call to find out what's the matter with me, tears just suddenly rain down my face and I couldn't seem to stop them at will. You being so nice and concern even though I'm making a fuss over nothing makes me realise that I'm just being even more stupid and silly to even think of the unthinkable things that's running in my head. How foolish I've been when I know that deep down inside you'll always be there for me no matter what the future holds. I do hope that holds cause for me, I would want to spend mine with yours.
I hate it when I hurt you with my stupidity and crazy actions. Oh how I wish time can be changed. Knowing that you were so hurt hurt me even more that made want to grab my bag to catch the first transport I could find to go all the way up there to search for you. Forgive me for being not understanding enough in this matters which are dear to you. I know it is not easy for you to sacrifice so much for me yet on my side, me being irrelevant. I have no idea what to do or say to undo my mistakes, I'm so sorry hun, I truly am sorry. They say that time heals all mistakes, I pray that this is one of those moments that can be healed and forgiven.
Will be waiting for you.
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